我会想念你

2nd 42.195

i wonder if you can see me run? spot me when u are in that blue dimension...

tomorrow will be marathon... or exactly 5 hrs to flag off...
ate a lot just now.. sleepy...

i just need this, like a break thru.. a brave step and then a great finish...
my gonna be second 42.195km......

一個被嘲笑的夢想，才有被實現的價值

like act cute only

yeah went for trng ytd.. and talk quite a lot with jacob....
cause only 2 of us there.. haha! grab some new knowledge from him =)

who this guy beside me ah? like act cute only...
HAHA

盧廣仲

just too sweet...

盧廣仲... lovely....

after the limelight

got a lot of birthday wish.. thru facebook... Zzz.....
haha that social networking shit is really pulling us together digitally....
yes i was training on my birthday.. don't really feels like skipping any pool trng..

well i got few call namely
lun- midnight call me say wanna go out eat, chee bye think i no need sleep like that.. haha thanks..
gy- fucker call say wanna go out eat but then only can go out early morning and afternoon cause 5pm have work.. NB is almost same unreasonable as lun.. haha...
egg- call to wish me and tell me she gg to work now.. wtf.. haha..

then i went out with some of them
da - went supper with him on 21st
adventure gang - ate steamboat... omg asking for lao sai (chow, jf,wy,double chin,nj,KSN,jenny and jermaine)
classmates - ate today.. they treat me sakae! think will really lao sai now... (HU,DW,CK)

okie thanks a lot too those who sms me..
lilin(who thinks i'll give her apple blah), aichin and jacob, alfiyan, vijay, vanessa, guo shu, wei jie, yu tai, jenny, janice, mili, yiling(who bombard me with some random stuff which i can't get it cause it's midnight) and mummy =) !

i'm really thankful for all wishes..

lots of things coming up... test, projects, lab.. and marathon...
just feeling bit lonely after some limelight session.. haha.. hope eveything goes well =)

EDITED:ALIGHT AND JEWELRY WHO CALLED ME AT HER FRIEND HOUSE.. THANKS AH!! HAHA

kenaboi!!

i'm back... -from my first whitwater trip which is also my first whitewater competition.. haha.. =)

the scary river after rain

the contestant's cars flooded too with the banks....
haha my number tag!
finisher medal =DD si bei welfare
alright it's an amazing trip -> with my limited vocab that's the most sophisticated word i can provide haha....
there are just too much stuff i need to write and so many thanks i have to give.... just ask me personally what happen k? haha... lazy to think...
thanks - jacob, ai chin, addison, amie, hee, gideon, LJ, hiap luh, daniel, crystal, dave.. oh and all forever-on-110km/hr uncle, duper scary......
okie need to go school liao.. =)

set me thinking............

kenaboi

i have to pack
-clothes
-sprayskirt
-first aid kid
-toiletries
-booties, buff, tights, ear piece
-of course mobile, passport and some money...
-lastly all my excitement and nervousness

into the bag pack i borrowed from chow...

http://www.kenaboi.com.my/

the very 1st step of achieving is always the hardest...
train hard paddle easy boy.. =)
see you guys again when i'm back sunday midnight! hahaha..

突然很想你

it's a rare saturday without the sea..
only me myself and acer in cosy room..

突然很想你

resting for my real run on sunday.. wish me good form k?
oh and kayaking training after 15km, wish me with more strength too... hahha..

my whitewater kayaking champion dream..

haha.. great finally got my photos.. and am ready to post! so i'm back with

this

this

and this!!

ah... what a trip.. makes me excited for more... thanks! Kota Kinabalu....

recently just did nike run, not a fantastic one... it's was pack with A LOT of i-actually-not-interested-in-running-but-is-nike-so-i-must-run teens.. kept blocking my way... and now result is still not out, not efficient ar..... ZZzz... but still with a nike bottle and tee goodies, it's worth the 20 bucks.. =)

i'm gg for a trip soon.. alone.. not exactly, but just without friends of my age -jacob,old man.. haha
i need to be there.. although sad but after some thinking that should be normal why others don't want to go along.. i was frustrated and confuse why they refuse to go when previously they told me they wanna improve, wanna try too...
then... i was enlighten.. by someone, i forgot is who again.. HAHA.. said -> we(a team) trains like a champion should train, there is only one..
they have different goals to my.. there isn't a need to be afraid of this loneliness
i should't have been such forceful to them.. PAISEI!

i'll be left with zero cash and half a month more to go after that..
but then......
head to the peak boy.. =)

''my whitewater kayaking champion dream..''

give me a break

give me a break, of your unreasonable rules..

taking a step back it might all be me being stubborn, refusing to accept those lines you tried to draw in everyone's life.. i think i have to use more of my ears than my mouth............... i need a new life.. new challenges.......... and some sleep now.. good night.

pre kk

tomorrow will be the day i will be doing/going

this

this

and thiskota kinabalu

omg i'm really excited... alamak pls don't rain like nobody's business... don't waste my precious savings........ haha..

see you guys when i'm back with A LOT photos on thurs!

i wonder if you would play the songs and sway with me?

reminds me................

i wonder if you would play the songs and sway with me?

be with me

my heart is pumping.. very hard.. nervous/exciting/anticipating/dreaming/hoping...

be with me =)

society

today like many other days this holiday.. busy, tiring and satisfying..

did rock climbing and again packing my room... it's never ending, it's not gonna stop.. getting messy - my room... but well at least now my clothes are welly placed.. =)
took a short walk with jf, as usual, on our way home.. and speaks about some trng stuff... hmm... trigger me to think and hooked some image up from my brain..

this quote was told by someone i can't seems to remember.. although repeated in english by many others.. (wayne, jacob, mr lim and mr ong) haha... i clearly and vividly remember someone said this to me...

骄兵必败

i guess u need to read up some chinese books if you don't understand this...
indeed...

willard keep yourself humble always while you're moving up in this horrible fated food chain -Society

pachamama

pachamama
chris sharma

this is rather new on youtube - big up production...
makes me really wanna climb now..... haha..

pin my hopes

i just did my level 2 sports climbing ytd.. made a major mistake and nearly cost a life of a man.. pretty sorry for him but then i'm glad that it happen in school and everything was there for me to set back.. i'm really glad... =)

then again getting my level 2 is a dupe delightful thing! another step nearing to my goal...

i got introduce to another jacob's friends, daniel.. he got BIG GUTS.. haha.. quit his job, sell his car.... he went to australia to study.. yes doing no other then u have expected, outdoor adventure learning... what a decision with determination..
makes me wanna go australia too.. haha.. but then if i would, that makes 2yrs of ns+3yrs obs+2 yrs study in australia.....
i will miss spending A LOT of time with my family and friends... i can't seems to let go that part of me... haha..

well i guess now i just have to set my sight to the next coming step since there's a long time more for me to think and choose...
hmm i might want to learn scuba diving(gy kept repeating it).. haha..
that would cost me not just a bomb but an atomic one...

ahhh.... when i can............................
do this...................................

i pin my hopes on others.. please do help me.. =)

changes that can't be solve

SIKE been great.. it might be my last sike, with SPA, i just realised and i'm glad that i've enjoyed it.. =)

changes is one of the constance that exist in life of mine..
and changes also seems to occur with problems..
and problems also seems to be always finding their way to me. fast.
and i can't seems to solve ANY of them

i've been prompt with some brain damaging question recently..
i can't seem to have any idea how i'm gonna juggle it..

i might cry. i'm demoralised. felt like a drag, especially to my parent, my mum.
seriously.......... i'm...............................

lost.

mum told/notice that i got more white hairs..
i think i've typed too much
i think i've thought too much
i think i need more rest
or maybe lawry's prime rib HAHA! (thanks yee for treating me today.. =] )

i think i just need some..............

thanks for your friendship.. and i wish u very well.. very very, well.. bye.. =)

spaga

let's see what happen to this in another hour time.. haha..

keane

i guess there will be a time for ppl who like genre - rock, alternative, indie or just like me who can't really named what label our preference is, and put our music to - "is just different"
and adding on "from those trend follower and chee bye techno".. haha..

well for me leaving the boy band is all or majorly due to this informatics world. when i was introduced to more kinds of genre.
this song, that i'm gonna upload, which i found to my delight while youtubing is some of those that shaped my liking..


ahh.... what great music.. i remember how amaze i was, back at no more then 16 years old, when i first saw the music video.. screaming with my inner voice "this is TMD nice!" haha..
well... time really flies..

updated : like a few mins later when i start checking up all my fav band.. haha
WTF??!!! oasis disbanded??!! NO!!!!!!

new alarm clock

yeah.....

that's the way..... new alarm clock.. whhoo!!! haha..
my mum bought it.. along with my badly/desperate for it new goggles and trunk.. whaha.. THANKS ma..

my clock 25.80

this might be one of my dumbest moment, being sabotage by my own curiosity...

out of curiosity and partly because i'm bored.. i wanted to see what happen to my clock which i dropped the day before... the min hand came off.. although it still can be use but it just ticks me off when i can't read minutes.. haha...

so grabbing my gear.. i expose my clock.. and it turns out me snapping 2 wires...
Zzzz...............................
and me without soldering tools pratically means i've just wasted
bloody $25.80... WTF....................................
RIP... clock that have been waking me up for 4 years.... bye bye..

keane

i'm bringing you to..
somewhere only we know... =)

total addiction to keane's song.. haha!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hmXY2MSrguE&feature=channel

BUT!
of course it was just as nice, after i heard In Finite Flight's cover


lovely

乐,要用功

is almost like a snake and ladder game.. where some moves might get u to another ladder up and some moves might just pull you down like a snake..

life that is..

interesting.. how i've survived my 19 years.. interesting how dramatic my thinking and body have transformed and differ from just 3 years back.. just like snake and ladder game.. i step up to a ladder..

well ahead of me now.. a gigantic snake, ready to pull me down anytime i expose my weakness.. ah!

have i gone so far in a circle just to see where i fell? i'm greatly demoralised..

i kept in mind what mum told me.. 乐,要用功.. now awaits me is just that opportunity that is promised to come when i put in effort..

no longer i wanna be the one to browse facebook and got envy by the photos taken by my friends.. (one by one.. they caught their chance..) and complain what i've missed and grief over it..
IT's OVER! THAT! is over....

ps. i promise myself
living life to it's fullest..

triumph

triumph

i wonder why i cried

one of strangest moment happened to me just a hour or so ago..
i came back from running, while doing cool down, i was watching tv(standing behind dad). it was showin mindee ong doing volunteery work in taiwan..
she went to a home, and it was this old mischievous lady that caught her attention.. taking her temperature and helping her for health check.. she fidget and refuse to get a proper temperature check, acting like a kid.. a widow since young she bear 8 child, 4 which pass away, the rest only visit her occasionally(rather/might be even less then annually).. abandon her at home.
when mindee ong asked her "are you happy? -with your life (in mandarin)". she laugh and answered "YES". but when mindee persist, urge to understand more, asking about her child. she remain silence and tears filled her eyes to the brim..
it's only when mindee quickly reponse, to her reaction, saying "it's okay.. you got us................."
she grab mindee into her arms and hug her like her's, breaking into tears..

me behind my dad, was already wiping away, i can't differentiate tears or sweat.. quickly.. i went to take a bath(i know i might cry like baby if i continues watching.. haha)

i remind myself that while this world progressess, i'll keep my roots down deep.. it's only when ur anchors are plant down deep, then u ride the waves that hits you time and time again..

the old lady acts like a underage when she hugs mindee.. but it was this pure and innocent actions that let me felt, i just need to refresh and go back to how i faced this world when i was a kid.. not being fearful to try and anticipating every single seconds that is coming..

i'll need to do some reflecting................................

loving this song

loving this song

i'm damn EXCITED..3 star assessment!!

my 1st salad

was having fever and felt really unwell ytd and this morning.. skip trng and rest home.. glad that i'm recovering now.. TMD scare i was infected with H1N1..
still feel quite dizzy and my appetite pls come back to papa soon..

ah! yes i got lots of free time today.. so i wanted to try cook(afternoon).. but who know i will fell asleep right on my com's table.. for 5 hrs.. haha..
i woke up around 9pm.. was a little hungry and want something light.. made my way to ntuc and bought some vegetables and try to make myself my-1st-salad! haha.. i guess it's quite a success with my newly thousand island source


hahaa.. took around half and hour to get all stuff ready.. (lettuce, carrot, potato and APPLE!)
and the end product......................................



okie la quite nice.. i will make one soon again!

(went back fb.. haha.. farmville quite interesting... HAHAHA!!)

rubbishly nonsensical blabbering

finally tried cooking with much help from dan and gy.. what a meal.. haha!

got quite demoralise ytd when i got back my papers seeing the 33/50 piss me off, when my friends score 48/50 mostly.. maybe for 5 seconds.. then i realise.. HEY i passed! haha.. then chiong back my seat with =) and play facebook... my friends got quite fed up seeing another classmates of mine,he hates, scores better then me when he skipped most of the lessons..
but i was in a total facebook mind so i just "uh uh uh uh" all his fustration.. hah..

i'm starting to pass all my modules! yeah~~

方大同's songs quite cool ar? haha.. rubbishly nonsensical blabbering..

banana booking in

all my buddies gg in army soon!!!! omg.............

listening: oasis's songs

i will miss you guys.. =/

our 1st night cycling

so fast it's been the 8th yrs.. from youth we grew to adulthood(physically only).. haha.. let's hope while our body slowly grows older we keep our mind as young ,as simple, as possible..

keep those dreams alive, banana.. =)

FO camp =)

i lost a pooh ball ytd.. just right not long after i commented it's cute... diao... zz.. hahaha!!

recently been treating physical injuries.. feels like a old man visiting tie da often..

WAVEHOUSE gonna be at sentosa soon!! wtf... dream coming true!

btw just visit the new quicksilver open at hereen.. totally it's for posers.. went to look for wetsuit and i only found tee's and board shorts.. diao.. okie nuff saying mundane stuff..

something interesting..
FO camp... it's definitaly a fantastic one with lots of new jokes and friends! ahhh.. been so long i went for a camp, almost forgot all the cheers i had.. seems like a shift of attitude and mindset drastically..
i guess most of them enjoy the last day when we provide them the chance for power boating.. haha.. still rmb i had the almost same reaction like them when i 1st ride power boats.. and kayaking is a blast! dunno when i will get to see photos..

talking bout kayaking.. i wrote on a survey where they ask what u see yourself in the future.. and i wrote there big..

WHITEWATER KAYAKING CHAMPION...

hahah!

kin lei changi.. let me take my assessment..
ahh.. just can't stop imagining bout it..

timetable rocks!

i just got my timetable.. it suxs...
i only end school on 4 on tues, the rest are 6....
i only starts school on 10 on fri, the rest are 8!!!

wtffffffffffffffffff

but is not as sux as it looks.. it's a chance for me.. a chance for me to make changes into my life..

ar! sounds all positive now..
i will bloody chiong to september... =)

manythanks

changes

can I?
would I?
did I?
should I?

changes

a short word for me and you. but hold hugh meaning/emotions/motivation/excitement to me..
just read a big book (or half of it due to constraint of time) - Who Moved My Cheese? by Spencer Johnson. if u are free do check this out..

but half of it already bought tons of knowledge or rather realization to, life. i have to admit and i can't run away *beware the man with one book - saint thomas aquinas

change is the law of life.. i don't like to read that quotes regarding life, it goes on.. it seems depressing and rather emo-ish. but nevertheless i can't agree more. it does goes on whether u like it or not.. i got poke on my skins for seconds with needles call adrenaline at the thought of it, that the way trying to make the best out of your life might be as simple as countering changes.. a conversation with daniel suddenly pop in to my mind where he share with us saying something like "i always try to keep myself on my tip of my toes.. dashing out of my comfort zone whenever there are one.." i like what he said, and can't agree further..
but i guess i've not been doing so for quite some time, i'm getting rusty and lazy..
well the big word of the day steps in... changes..

i'm all pump up for a great adventure ahead..
leap with me.. =)


wanna look for some photos of leaping and i found myself this.. haha.. picture speaks it all..

i'm damn excited, over. EVERYTHING

still cricling in the c.s lewis washing machine qutoes..
hard to get out, hard to stop it..

1.Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art... It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival

2.Courage is not simply one of the virtues, but the form of every virtue at the testing point

i wonder if the exaggerate cold weather would frozen my heart?
or i would burn and melt the ice that tries to pull me over?

i'm damn excited, over. EVERYTHING. =]

what's now?

been searching for a job to filled up this slept-too-much-in-the-afternoon, 3am cold cold night
haha

unwillingly, internet. i went to check up some(a lot) climbing stuff and yes what jacob say - climbing equipment very ex de lor. haha. before i got blister on my eyes for those endless "next" i ta-bao-ed myself duck rice and ruffles. and now i'm back, urge to find some gossip, juicy news from the world-my friends. i got lost when i placed my hands on the keyboard(not in the mood for friendster) i AGAIN suddenly remember. I. GOT. A. BLOG!=]haha..
reading one of my very dear friend's blog make me feel really little, as in uneducated/not knowledgable. i've always hope to be like him and Him being able to trigger one's mind in words. and not just plan writing/typing/accounting. it might work if i go for english lesson. haha. but being able to write does not leads to interesting/exciting essays, it might help, that truly fax our complex thinking to another's brain.
or maybe i should join the PAP kindergarden, starting all over again. haha.. then i might move my pen about some really bombastic and lively apple eating afternoon. ZZzzz...

well, after gathering all my emo-ness back to my ass, i sat it on with my cute/o-biang computer chair. realising how much i got affected just by reading his blog, i'm shock. not like "OMFG!!!!!" but like "oh". back at those good heavy armour and garment days where people are fasinated by every book they read, human now can choose not to -books.
we have the internet. i would say you can get almost everything on google. then i check out the prince of internet right behind google jehovah-wikia, haha wikipedia la! it gave me "the Internet is defined by its interconnections and routing policies".
hmm, "defined by its interconnections". we're indeed being connected closer to everyone by just plugging in that visual world.

so what now? i asked..
we creating a world for ourself?
we set the rules for that world?
we shape the world like how we want it?
could this world i'm living might be someone's else internet? (too much matrix)
am i the Norton in this world?
or i might just be a virus?!

well i realise what i want was never to be the virus nor the Norton. okie fine i know you might bug me with it. "nor the AVG". satisfied? haha..
i just want to be a webpage. neither i want to destruct nor construct or restruct(there is no this word in dictionary actually, i just check out. haha, nvm live with it). i feel more like teaching others to contruct. one hand i'm afraid of NS(national serivce) on the other i'm anticipating what comes after that.. Outward Bound Singapore. haha.. my minds are filled to the brim with scenario with me in it as a instructor. haha.. teaching others what i love, leading others what i enjoy.
it sound absurb to the typical. but to me, it's hard for me to give up happiness to money. don't get me wrong, i guess you know friends(if there are still people reading my blog. haha), i'm not "loaded kia". i'm actually "pok-khai kia".

like what i read from the news. this economic crisis affects everyone, except either you are poor or you are not human. i guess it did't affect me much.. so that makes me.. haha.. you know..
it sets me worrying for my future and most of all, my parents. have they thought for anything better than this they are living for?
can i support them with my dream job at OBS then?
will you then work for something that would sacrifice the material comfort?

so many unknowns and questions that we have in this might-be-just-a-flop world..
or maybe i should't think of it but to just study for the exams that is coming? haha..
shallow mind..