everyday

今天有一点想哭

还要再撑9个月 我久久盼望的“自游”将游回我掌控

厌倦这频率 束缚着我的心跳呼吸

难受 但也没折

忍受 将变习惯

有时后不干心 也想勇敢 不顾一切 冲动的任性一次

但勇气也常象流星 终就堕落

平常

质疑是否世界还会有人相信我的梦

相信我的天马行空 我的倔强 我的坚持

失落

檐着光线用手指画出太阳的形状

痴迷着自己虚拟的艺术

生命也被指尖画过去

我

到底在为了什么活下去

enlighten me..

结果还是空虚..... -_-"

wanna paint my room...... =)

生日快乐 维乐

xavier(my ocs bed buddy) sent me a very depressing text...

"i forgot what's my motivation and why i wanted to be an officer"

i reply that ocs instructor

"find out from ur cadet lo.. maybe u will recall.. lol"

and so my 22nd birthday passed peacefully simple ending the day with a dinner

mummy deliberately took an off day waiting patiently at home for me to book out from camp..

arigato.. (ty too to all that wished and celebrate for me.. *grin)

i did't breathe a word about my birthday in camp.. wonder why am i so close up so emo.. age is a factor or just feeling unfamiliar without a platoon sharing my happiness?

ai ya.. where's my cpc where's my sect comm where's my buddy.. missing all of them..

“谢谢你还记得 我那青涩的坚持”

有一些lovesick

或许 想找个伴 来分担

终是挨不过寂寞带来的暗淡

where's my 太阳?

是否 还有

一个肩膀 在等待依靠

一个空虚 等待人填补

一个爱请 等我去追逐

-肉麻

and now a new chapter, end of OCS

and so a commission officer i am.. 9 months of military training ends at the toss of our peaked cap..

CLM

1 white strap cadet rank presentation

tower run

initiation, 2 white strap

family visit

IPPT

Service Term

Skylark

Centipede

Cougar

Rhino
Platoon outfield
Scorpion King

24km march 3 white strap rank presentation on elephant hill

8km fast march beret presentation

BLOCK LEAVE!

IPPT

Pro Term

SEOC

IPPT

Hunter I

Hunter II

Wolf
Castaway
Robison Crusoe
LANCER(bunei)

-Chindit

-Temada
-Hornbill
-JCC

UO live firing

Dump-In

Jaguar
intership
CSB

STARLIGHT(taiwan)

-Homerun

-Pieces

ATP

Panther

Platoon Assault Course
ACPC

Commission lo!

forget all the challenges ppl talk about we'll be facing..

now just celebrate.. =)

we're million miles of water, apart

feels like it here too..

ensemble

booking in again 3 hrs later... =/

ytd went out with da and gy.. wanted to go buckaroo but they complain it being too pricey.. end up at upp thomson long house

1st stop long hse

ate prawn mee.. not nice lei, bo standard..

2nd chiong pang

feeling hungry still(i think is just me ha!) we head to chiong pang for some tau huey.. but poor willard can't stop munching along the way (goreng pisang, red bean, magnum double caramel, and 2 bottle of yeo's).. when we reach i was too full to stuff anything down my throat.. haha walk to a nearby swing to rest..

3rd gy hse

just a short walk away frm chiong pang.. time check 23:00.. i can't believe chicken rice is still selling.. haha 是天意.. with extra meat and a bowl of peanut soup... nice...

just love hanging out with "banana" we never runs out of food and nonsense..

i remember and reflects-

photos on ur wall is interesting.. you look sweet and i'm happy for you.. =)

i'm no longer who i think i am..

the values, habits, thoughts and experience have compose me differently from what i believe i am..

i'm thankful for the transformation done upon me..

changes are constant but only You who brings me joy remain unchanged

everlastingly