still cricling in the c.s lewis washing machine qutoes..
hard to get out, hard to stop it..
1.Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art... It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival
2.Courage is not simply one of the virtues, but the form of every virtue at the testing point
i wonder if the exaggerate cold weather would frozen my heart?
or i would burn and melt the ice that tries to pull me over?
i'm damn excited, over. EVERYTHING. =]
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Saturday, January 10, 2009
what's now?
been searching for a job to filled up this slept-too-much-in-the-afternoon, 3am cold cold night
haha
unwillingly, internet. i went to check up some(a lot) climbing stuff and yes what jacob say - climbing equipment very ex de lor. haha. before i got blister on my eyes for those endless "next" i ta-bao-ed myself duck rice and ruffles. and now i'm back, urge to find some gossip, juicy news from the world-my friends. i got lost when i placed my hands on the keyboard(not in the mood for friendster) i AGAIN suddenly remember. I. GOT. A. BLOG!=]haha..
reading one of my very dear friend's blog make me feel really little, as in uneducated/not knowledgable. i've always hope to be like him and Him being able to trigger one's mind in words. and not just plan writing/typing/accounting. it might work if i go for english lesson. haha. but being able to write does not leads to interesting/exciting essays, it might help, that truly fax our complex thinking to another's brain.
or maybe i should join the PAP kindergarden, starting all over again. haha.. then i might move my pen about some really bombastic and lively apple eating afternoon. ZZzzz...
well, after gathering all my emo-ness back to my ass, i sat it on with my cute/o-biang computer chair. realising how much i got affected just by reading his blog, i'm shock. not like "OMFG!!!!!" but like "oh". back at those good heavy armour and garment days where people are fasinated by every book they read, human now can choose not to -books.
we have the internet. i would say you can get almost everything on google. then i check out the prince of internet right behind google jehovah-wikia, haha wikipedia la! it gave me "the Internet is defined by its interconnections and routing policies".
hmm, "defined by its interconnections". we're indeed being connected closer to everyone by just plugging in that visual world.
so what now? i asked..
we creating a world for ourself?
we set the rules for that world?
we shape the world like how we want it?
could this world i'm living might be someone's else internet? (too much matrix)
am i the Norton in this world?
or i might just be a virus?!
well i realise what i want was never to be the virus nor the Norton. okie fine i know you might bug me with it. "nor the AVG". satisfied? haha..
i just want to be a webpage. neither i want to destruct nor construct or restruct(there is no this word in dictionary actually, i just check out. haha, nvm live with it). i feel more like teaching others to contruct. one hand i'm afraid of NS(national serivce) on the other i'm anticipating what comes after that.. Outward Bound Singapore. haha.. my minds are filled to the brim with scenario with me in it as a instructor. haha.. teaching others what i love, leading others what i enjoy.
it sound absurb to the typical. but to me, it's hard for me to give up happiness to money. don't get me wrong, i guess you know friends(if there are still people reading my blog. haha), i'm not "loaded kia". i'm actually "pok-khai kia".
like what i read from the news. this economic crisis affects everyone, except either you are poor or you are not human. i guess it did't affect me much.. so that makes me.. haha.. you know..
it sets me worrying for my future and most of all, my parents. have they thought for anything better than this they are living for?
can i support them with my dream job at OBS then?
will you then work for something that would sacrifice the material comfort?
so many unknowns and questions that we have in this might-be-just-a-flop world..
or maybe i should't think of it but to just study for the exams that is coming? haha..
shallow mind..
haha
unwillingly, internet. i went to check up some(a lot) climbing stuff and yes what jacob say - climbing equipment very ex de lor. haha. before i got blister on my eyes for those endless "next" i ta-bao-ed myself duck rice and ruffles. and now i'm back, urge to find some gossip, juicy news from the world-my friends. i got lost when i placed my hands on the keyboard(not in the mood for friendster) i AGAIN suddenly remember. I. GOT. A. BLOG!=]haha..
reading one of my very dear friend's blog make me feel really little, as in uneducated/not knowledgable. i've always hope to be like him and Him being able to trigger one's mind in words. and not just plan writing/typing/accounting. it might work if i go for english lesson. haha. but being able to write does not leads to interesting/exciting essays, it might help, that truly fax our complex thinking to another's brain.
or maybe i should join the PAP kindergarden, starting all over again. haha.. then i might move my pen about some really bombastic and lively apple eating afternoon. ZZzzz...
well, after gathering all my emo-ness back to my ass, i sat it on with my cute/o-biang computer chair. realising how much i got affected just by reading his blog, i'm shock. not like "OMFG!!!!!" but like "oh". back at those good heavy armour and garment days where people are fasinated by every book they read, human now can choose not to -books.
we have the internet. i would say you can get almost everything on google. then i check out the prince of internet right behind google jehovah-wikia, haha wikipedia la! it gave me "the Internet is defined by its interconnections and routing policies".
hmm, "defined by its interconnections". we're indeed being connected closer to everyone by just plugging in that visual world.
so what now? i asked..
we creating a world for ourself?
we set the rules for that world?
we shape the world like how we want it?
could this world i'm living might be someone's else internet? (too much matrix)
am i the Norton in this world?
or i might just be a virus?!
well i realise what i want was never to be the virus nor the Norton. okie fine i know you might bug me with it. "nor the AVG". satisfied? haha..
i just want to be a webpage. neither i want to destruct nor construct or restruct(there is no this word in dictionary actually, i just check out. haha, nvm live with it). i feel more like teaching others to contruct. one hand i'm afraid of NS(national serivce) on the other i'm anticipating what comes after that.. Outward Bound Singapore
it sound absurb to the typical. but to me, it's hard for me to give up happiness to money. don't get me wrong, i guess you know friends(if there are still people reading my blog. haha), i'm not "loaded kia". i'm actually "pok-khai kia".
like what i read from the news. this economic crisis affects everyone, except either you are poor or you are not human. i guess it did't affect me much.. so that makes me.. haha.. you know..
it sets me worrying for my future and most of all, my parents. have they thought for anything better than this they are living for?
can i support them with my dream job at OBS then?
will you then work for something that would sacrifice the material comfort?
so many unknowns and questions that we have in this might-be-just-a-flop world..
or maybe i should't think of it but to just study for the exams that is coming? haha..
shallow mind..
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