结果还是空虚..... -_-"

wanna paint my room...... =)

生日快乐 维乐

xavier(my ocs bed buddy) sent me a very depressing text...

"i forgot what's my motivation and why i wanted to be an officer"

i reply that ocs instructor

"find out from ur cadet lo.. maybe u will recall.. lol"

and so my 22nd birthday passed peacefully simple ending the day with a dinner

mummy deliberately took an off day waiting patiently at home for me to book out from camp..

arigato.. (ty too to all that wished and celebrate for me.. *grin)

i did't breathe a word about my birthday in camp.. wonder why am i so close up so emo.. age is a factor or just feeling unfamiliar without a platoon sharing my happiness?

ai ya.. where's my cpc where's my sect comm where's my buddy.. missing all of them..

“谢谢你还记得 我那青涩的坚持”

有一些lovesick

或许 想找个伴 来分担

终是挨不过寂寞带来的暗淡

where's my 太阳?

是否 还有

一个肩膀 在等待依靠

一个空虚 等待人填补

一个爱请 等我去追逐

-肉麻

and now a new chapter, end of OCS

and so a commission officer i am.. 9 months of military training ends at the toss of our peaked cap..

CLM

1 white strap cadet rank presentation

tower run

initiation, 2 white strap

family visit

IPPT

Service Term

Skylark

Centipede

Cougar

Rhino
Platoon outfield
Scorpion King

24km march 3 white strap rank presentation on elephant hill

8km fast march beret presentation

BLOCK LEAVE!

IPPT

Pro Term

SEOC

IPPT

Hunter I

Hunter II

Wolf
Castaway
Robison Crusoe
LANCER(bunei)

-Chindit

-Temada
-Hornbill
-JCC

UO live firing

Dump-In

Jaguar
intership
CSB

STARLIGHT(taiwan)

-Homerun

-Pieces

ATP

Panther

Platoon Assault Course
ACPC

Commission lo!

forget all the challenges ppl talk about we'll be facing..

now just celebrate.. =)

we're million miles of water, apart

feels like it here too..

ensemble

booking in again 3 hrs later... =/

ytd went out with da and gy.. wanted to go buckaroo but they complain it being too pricey.. end up at upp thomson long house

1st stop long hse

ate prawn mee.. not nice lei, bo standard..

2nd chiong pang

feeling hungry still(i think is just me ha!) we head to chiong pang for some tau huey.. but poor willard can't stop munching along the way (goreng pisang, red bean, magnum double caramel, and 2 bottle of yeo's).. when we reach i was too full to stuff anything down my throat.. haha walk to a nearby swing to rest..

3rd gy hse

just a short walk away frm chiong pang.. time check 23:00.. i can't believe chicken rice is still selling.. haha 是天意.. with extra meat and a bowl of peanut soup... nice...

just love hanging out with "banana" we never runs out of food and nonsense..

i remember and reflects-

photos on ur wall is interesting.. you look sweet and i'm happy for you.. =)

i'm no longer who i think i am..

the values, habits, thoughts and experience have compose me differently from what i believe i am..

i'm thankful for the transformation done upon me..

changes are constant but only You who brings me joy remain unchanged

everlastingly

go your way...

am i walking this alone?

so fast... mine 10th month serving ns, army.. just another 1 yr to go.. and i will be ORDing soon.. lol.. everything really seems to fly by me lightyear fast .. i try to consolidate my thoughts, making sense to those senseless things, finding meaning at those meaningless past...

so fast... i'm already coming 22 this year.. i met banana -gy, da and lun ytd.. come to think of it.. they've been around for 10yrs now.. i'm appreciative.. secondary school days with them are still back of my head...

my sis says it right.. your 20's will be double paced.. cherish it..

so fast.. tonight i'll be flying off taiwan for exercise... when i come back it'll be just 7wks to commission.. to the day i've been praying for.. the day i'll see my mum smiling, wearing those epaulette on my shoulder..

why so emo?? i don't understand.. it's not like i'm not coming back from this life changing experience.. maybe i'll leave some bad habit, wrong concept there.. bringing back new ideas, new hope... perhaps i'm just afraid of these changes..

recently i took a 1star class with chow jf wy and eh.. we enjoyed it.. and shared how we miss those time we(not to forget loon, yt, mx) sit around at PM waiting talking playing time away.. it's not like we can't do it now no more.. but we no longer can afford that..

evolution? or just aging.. just a method of explanation... words are that cheap.. it doesn't sums up to anything..

i love You

love sick?

歌罗西书

无论做甚麽,都要从心里做