tu me manques

today i ran frm home to upp thomson and back home.. haha.. wasn't prepared for such run.. but i guess i just want something out of my comfort.. deliberately took a wrong turn, exploring wherever my legs can take me to..

i ran pass reservoirs, canals, long stretch of houses, even entered into an army protected area and lost my way in it only to re-emerge back to civilization when i choose to bash thru.. haha i was right beside the expressway when i came out of it.. finally got home after a long 6hrs of adventure, a little sunburned but 

satisfying.

long time since i felt this way. so free spirited. at the furthest point of my run i sat down, at a park along upp thomson. considering whether i can continue to run to macritchie or further without water, food.. and the sun is coming on top of my head.. the thought of continuing only lasted for another few more mins, i decided to rest a good half an hour before any further run. pull my hair and lowered my head.

i look around my bench.
i smell the air, i feel the sun and i can hear people. humans. but i just can't, just can't detect a beat from my heart. my mind is so overwhelming and inhuman it silent my heart.. i've forgotten what i enjoyed, what i gave thanks, what i risk my life for.. what kept me running?
i turn around and went home. my hiding place.. anywhere with You..

i miss you friend.. but i will let u be u and let me be me..

well u deserve a better me :)