to you

it's been the second day of holiday.. i'm already feeling it is draggy..

went running and did some conditioning.. super tired.. got home bath and slept.. got this dumb dream.. that i was running away from some tsunami.. only to be awake when the damn water gonna hit me.. it's been long since i felt so FREAKING hungry.. haha..
sitting alone in my room never felt so bad.. maybe it was fine cause i always try to use up every bar of energy i have.. the only thoughts i have was to sleep immediatly..
i'm floating around with her, self made, presence.. thinking if time would to flow upstream.. she might enjoy laying around my room which is that comfortable.. but yeah.. i'm all alone.. looked down and pulled my hair with my hand.. when i realise i've been talking to myself in this lonely room.. psycho..
still rmb what u told me.. how ur dad worked so hard for your family.. where you belong.. how irritated u get at how ppl look at you.. how u hate those materialistic.. how u lost ur watch cos of KP.. well it reminds me of you everytime i see ppl eating ba chor mee.. those reactions i rmb.. those gesture, tone and how you look at me..
it's not reasonable.. it's not me.. allowing someone i know not long, to be circling my brain that long.. i still keep ur sms.. when my phone spoils, it wasn't "shit! i've to spend money for a new phone".. but it was "shit! that's my memories of you".. thank God i still have that pathetic 3 sms i've saved in my sim card.. and i guess that was enough.. enough for this lifetime..
i'm quite fed up actually.. fed up of my life.. that it was gg wrong.. i'm not ready for this shit.. i was never ready.. but i got no time to waste.. time to strike back!
i don't want to be telling others how i did it last time.. but i want tell others how i made it..

arr...

forget bout the past.. it bring me no further..
look to the future.. it keeps me going..

byebye. =]