i've been duper emo this few days.. repeatedly asking myself the same question over and over again, is this the end? ,not giving me rest.. tried a few methods to forgive myself.. but those thoughts of her are suffocating me.. suciding..
"haven we met? you're some kind of a beautiful stranger. you could be good for me. i've had a taste for danger." - madonna
stuff my schedule with all sorts of work.. i even start doing self-revision! haha.. that's rare..
i must really thanks jun feng eng hin and wen yi.. filling up most of the gap in my life.. making me really better.. but everytime when i have to be alone.. she never fails, never fails to make me feel guilty.. i hate myself.. being such weak.. i'd laugh at those who cried for their misery relationship.. a retribution? you really got me this time.. never i've felt such need for another person..
"it wears me out.
if i could be who you wanted.
all the time" - radiohead
haha.. this song again.. shuffle mode also can skip to this.. you win liao la.. =]
"just to get a better view. one fine day!" - alastair binks
change to something more less emo.. and yes it was a fine day and it'll be.. look straight look ahead.. always look on the bright side of life!!!!! haha.. better days have ended.. best days are ahead of me.. gonna grap every single hope i have.. i decide the future.. believe in Him, He will bring me there..
i guess it is hard to forget.. but i am not ready to start forgetting.. i'm still young.. memories are fresh with me.. slowly she might not appear in my life.. but that's might i typed.. DASH DASH DASH WILLARD!!
3.2 for this sem i will aim.. 8.4 mins for 2.4km, 10 pull ups, 42.195km and yes... her... none is running away from me..
i don't need luck.. i need determination and most of all.....
faith.
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