去了好远的你那方

hey... erm. hey...

默想前方
好像 很多还没完成
好像 还可以做再多一点

你好像 还没准备好
你好像 还可以做再多一点

我好像 还没忘记好
我好像 还可以做再多一点



讲个故事吧 让故事把细节抹去
把想要传达的 在文字徒步
走去你那头的 都没有我的身影
抵达您那头的 只存有我的善意

有一天  有个傻傻的男生
有一天  有个傻傻的男生
有一天......
有个傻傻的男生.

他....... 不想再傻
不想坚持 不想期待 不想再拥抱
不是不爱 但却实想转道
来临的那一班 他不搭了

这苹果 他不带走了
傻傻的 写了封信和苹果
过了太久 忘了地址
粘了信封 按手祷告
望她能收到 他没附上收信地址的祝福

傻傻的男生
去了熟悉的山上
看着沿海的黄昏 火车环着山脚往远去渺小
举起握紧信封的右手
对的时刻 他放了手
让微风寄信
咬着苹果
闭了眼睛
感受海风

傻傻的
男生
掉了一滴泪...

hope not the last merry post!

Hi all, merry christmas.....

its another year.
let's treat this as my last post. im having a hard time to even login to the website with my failing memory of hotmail's password haha..
my name was lalalor... hahha that's almost 10 yrs back since anyone called me that.

2015,
i graduated! from uni.. it was june or august (i cant even rmb the month) since graduation, and my motivations to conquer the marketplace slowly dims... now what's circling in my mind maybe how much i can earn for the month and really how to getby.. oh my...

i joined osportz with eugene, have been working hard clinching programs and creating programs... my sole excitement at work now maybe the coming taiwan training camp in feb and later the championship in july 2016.. have been training hard running, climbing, swimming.. it came such a shock to me when i ran 11:48mins for ippt... hahhaa what a joke... the addition of 3 mins since my last ippt might be also from my 9kg weight gain hhahahaha..... basically im a bump now... im overweight (75kg) and lost my physique..

it all started from an ankle injury then it leads to many other joints failing and of course ill discipline have push me southwards.... was really fortunate now the ankle joint have stabled and im back to running again! can't wait for the many adventure ahead with my soon to come fitness.. haha

have been thinking about the future. much uncertainty, much potential too. im spoiled for choice. haha.. that's really like what i posted many years ago "一百种生活".. well social media sure did not help by showing even more possibility of how others led their life and how not to. im just confused maybe.. didt want to make a wrong choice to be exact... i pray for clarity... a clear path ahead...

2016 will be fantastic for me..
it will be..
and it will be for my future is with You Lord.....

what's in my mind now
1) Career
2) money
3) fitness
4) future GF (haha what....)
5) the CG's thanksgiving
6) how to spend my 2015 countdown
7) money
8) money
9) money
10) and yes money, and im quite hungry now.. ahh damn gotta lose weight......

Be hardworking willard.....
you are blessed and highly favored...
don't try to make a living, just live :)

hi

2015

hope this is not the last.



for now

viva la vida.................................................

脑里的他和她, 和祂

hello..

你好吗?

merry christmas.....

before the year end wanna remind myself of the good things that happened.

I had fun and never felt more alive then now this present moment.

SOT cover most of my memory bout 2014..

ending now with my involvement to orienteering and climbing.

did rinjani and also went back playboating......

it's coming my very last semester of my life, at least for my youth. 2015 im gonna graduate.

i feel alive, i feel motivated, i am... feeling it.

that it's gonna be good time again

maybe it is time to open up myself again...

maybe it is time.............

Christmas differently

merry christmas..

this christmas is a special one..
the usual will be filled with good foods, new faces and many laughter...
this one had most of that too but with many more decision concerning the future..

im glad. the cg with God's grace have grown.
i give thanks not just to my fellow members but also really to other cg leaders and members who stood by us.. it was a much needed help... and im just happy to see things fall in place, like there's an order and system around, felt safe and definitely way more confident (in being able to complete the works) than when we started.....

maybe.. THAT was lay out in front of me in such manner deliberately for a purpose.. i mean i dont really learn a lesson out of this but i have definitely experience changes in my life.. what's better is my perspective have also widen thru this season..

thru the whole 2013 i've not really think about what's gg ahead for me.. maybe is the start of school that busy my life out.. it is only this season or technically this month, more specifically the exact moment derrick left for his exchange..
i've pre-am myself that without my leader around things would (naturally) go out of hand in the cg.. so many weeks i did try to talk myself out over and over again haha, its a good mental prep..
but i didt anticipate the many life decision that would come to stack ontop which was totally unprepared..

i choose
to shun away talking about it to others.. i wanted some space for myself to really think about it....
i mean i can really read what's in their mind of my friends once i shared these... and i really do not want to burden them with these... or truthfully i just not want to hear what i knew they will tell me...

i dont want to hear those words of encouragement, always felt it is cheap.......

coming to the mid of december i was really worn out by the vision (or i called it expectation then) of the cg...
i just cant think of a logical explanation for me to cont doing the works of God at THAT moment....
like there's so many impt decision and thoughts i must make regarding to my life than the cg's

but there i found it..........

there is such an immerse presence in this.. like it pierce right to the main flow of blood in my heart, it skipped a beat..

motivating me in such manner.. haha.... definitely His ways are always higher......
MY life to begin with is not just bout me........
my comforter, my constant....

因为爱情

触景伤情.

keep climbing

继续
无常

year coming to an end. many targets for the year yet complete.
ahhh
我真的感觉到了
在需要做决定的阶段
好多不喜欢
成长是接受还是突破现实
不确定

提醒自己不能平淡度过
生活
傅着木制地板 闻着微风带来的凉快
看那风铃摇摆 让我感到活着的爽快

心跳 减速
再一次 酝酿 冲次的动力!!